February the Fourth.

9:37 PM

my mental state is absolutely lost. words are being slurred and i havent had a sip of liquor, obviously. my mood as of late is completely and utterly, tested. i find myself questioning my actions no matter what i’m doing and i guess that this loss of carefreeness is something i should be taking in stride. buckling down is something that most young adults do in life, i find myself a bit too late though. this change that my peers went through months ago is something i am just now starting to discover and since the change is so late, part of me wishes it just wouldnt come at all...
it is said that once someone utters the phrase and so it goes… you lose a memory. my mind is wandering as i try to recollect. my most important memories as of late are still with me and i guess that in the grand scheme of things i shouldnt really be worried about loss of memories that dont coincide with my direct thoughts.
i’m feeling nostalgic. 2 days.
my heart cant wait.